Selections and Steamboat!

Today I went for KL selections. It was quite a on-the-spur-of-the-moment kind of thing, I only found out a few days before. Selections was good I think? I went in with intentions of fighting and gaining experience, nothing more. I was quite prepped up for it.

I was there really early. My friend wasn't there yet, because they didn't know the way and were following people. I was a little nervous, just a little. Mostly, ready to have some fun and test my skills.

Quite a long delay. Don't know what the hold-up was. Weighing-in time. No one in my categories. I was the borderline weight, could have gone to either category.

I was speechless at that time. Stunned. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Another free win. It really has been my luck, all my life I would say. I've had many walk-over wins, and almost always got straight into the semis or finals. This time, it wasn't about the medal. It was about fighting and see what I was capable of.

Selections ended early since most categories had really few people. I later found out, most of my friends are going under premier clubs, not under states. Will see them at the nationals next month hopefully. Training starts this Saturday. Hope I survive it.

Went for steamboat dinner, our MAPCU celebration, at Yuen. We were the earliest ones. We sat around 1 table and started eating first, while waiting for the rest who trickled in. Food was good. The night was generally quite good for me, because everyone had something interesting for me to create a story about.

Towards the end of the dinner, I suddenly felt a dizzy spell and everything around me blurred. I felt like I was going to fall off the chair any moment, and now looking back, I wonder whether I should have. I could see, but I couldn't react and I felt like I was losing grip of everything. But I was afraid that if I fell asleep, I wouldn't wake up again, so I forced myself not to faint. You'd be amazed at the human mind.

My friend sent me home. I didn't want my parents to find out. They'd force me to quit sports for sure. Blame it on something nonsensical. My friend told me he thinks I'm having a migraine. I googled it up. Says it lasts between 4 hours and few days. I immediately closed the page, dared not read further. I googled up blurred vision. My findings were even more scary than about migraines. Blurred vision is the symptom for a long list of really serious diseases, including brain tumour. Also closed that page.

I retired early that night. Did not even watch my video. I did watch a bit with my president and coach at dinner, was heartbreaking yet funny at the same time. If it were someone else, I'd be laughing my heads off. But it's me. It's quite hard watching yourself.